same here... we were going to decorate a new year tree together and spend some time with all that christmas vibes despite the war and bombs, you know. but he's in the army now, and I didn't even hear from him anything about how everything's going... and you know what? i don't have any energy to spend holidays at events or smth, feeling the loneliest person in the world among people... you're brave and strong to celebrate at the event, really.

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